Seriously

I started the tracy Anderson method. then I tweaked my knee. the two are not related, other than my hurt knee killed me so bad after exercising that I had to go to urgent care and get a toradol shot and some muscle relaxers.

tomorrow I am going to see the band OMD with a good friend of mine. It should be cool. I haven't been to a concert in ages. I'm really looking forward to having an adventure with him!

on a side note:

I am so irritated with life right now. Nothing good has happened to me in a long time. I haven't met any cool new people, I can't get a full time job, and I'm still without a man. I know I'm fine without one, but it would still be cool.

can't God just throw me a bone here?

It is better to love someone you cannot have than to be with someone you cannot love.

Which is why I could no longer be married to Steve.

I just wish I wasn't in love with someone  who was in love with someone else. Supposedly.

Progress

no progress on weight loss, but I have been writing like a total maniac. pun intended. I am entering this essay contest for real simple magazine, writing about your bravest moment or whatever, and you win $3000 if they pick your essay as the winner.

quote of the day: Keep growing quietly.

I'm not going to mention the people in my life that think I can't accomplish anything, or people that get mad at me over stupid shit, or people that think I'm never going to get out of my parents' house or make anything of myself. I'm just going to keep growing quietly. I will exceed all expectations.

surprise, surprise

well, I haven't worked out. I've been meaning to... really, I have. I will tonight. I swear! Anyway, I went to the doctor yesterday and got weighed. I'm down 4 lbs. in 2 weeks! I figure that's awesome for not working out. I started Richard Simmons' food mover program. So far it's going great. I'll post again tonight after I work out. The plan is to do the food mover program and zumba (a modified version) and the tracy Anderson method workout program. hopefully it kicks my butt cos I really do need it. I haven't been sleeping much lately. This is what usually happens when I'm dieting. Apparently stuffing yourself makes you really tired and when you're not eating as much you have more energy or something like that. Plus this terrible headache I have is not helping. Anyway, I'll post again later. Wish me luck.

and so it goes...

tomorrow is another day... I am starting fresh on my weight loss journey. I keep telling myself it is for the last time, but you never know. I weigh more than I've ever weighed in my life. For those of you who don't know, I am currently in the middle of a health scare. I've been having some problems and they could be either symptoms of diabetes or multiple sclerosis. I had blood work done yesterday but I won't get the results until next Tuesday. Anyway, every night I will be posting EVERY SINGLE THING that I ate during the day, as well as what form of exercise I did. I am starting out with "Metamorphosis" by Tracy Anderson for the first ninety days, then I'll be switching to Richard Simmons' "Project H.O.P.E." I'm not going to be following the diet that Tracy Anderson recommends, due to the absurdity of it. I can't live off of homemade blueberry applesauce and kale smoothies. Besides, I hate to cook. See you tomorrow! xoxo, Brooke